Confirmation Retreat

So, I went on a confirmation retreat this weekend.

Besides being one of like 4 public school kids
immersed in private school religious geniuses,
it was amazing.

Some of the elements in the trip could have been redone,
but overall I had a good time.

Indeed, I met some new people- and that is always a plus.
I plugged in some new numbers into my cell phone,
and I shared some good stuff with some good people.

I reel spiritually rejuvenated and renewed, and
it's really refreshing.

Daily happening as I know it.

Today I had church.
You know, not bad.

I do like going to church... or excuse me, I do like going to mass.
Sometimes I get something out of it, and other times I just listen and search for something.
I definitely cannot say I'm one of those really religious Catholics though.

Although I am getting confirmed this year, there's part of me who feels bad about it because I have not done too much to deserve it... Nobody is perfect, yeah, but I would like to be at the least- acceptable as a Catholic. Ah well. What can you do?

The time will come if I just wait; but at the same time I must try to change so that something will actually happen.

Today at confirmation, my fellow peers and I made 200 lunch sacks for homeless people. It really was pretty fun. I personally like food and lunch packing. Raisins, Capri Suns, prayer cards, crackers, vienna sausages, and gifts included too.... It was pretty awesome, and I hope that it brings joy to the people who really are less fortunate than me- possession wise.

That is it.

The world

Is looking a little meh...

I'm having some irresponsible troubles with scheduling life right now.
I'm booked to go to a confirmation 'retreat' thing, but also have a solo ensemble performance the same weekend..

and the confirmation thing is mandatory- and so now I have to drop the solo ensemble...
that makes me feel really bad, because the competition is next week- and there's two sopranos, two altos and two second sopranos, and I'm one of the two sopranos....

so now if they choose to keep competing, there will be yet only one soprano.
Sooo that sucks... still haven't told my instructor...

ehhh.

It was my fault actually, I should have checked my calendar before I made another 'commitment' (which is no longer)...

Hey, it's life.
And the choir club is not a class for me, so it's not like I'm going to get an F for not attending or anything.

Although I am pretty beat up about this, I choose to look at it in a different way that makes me feel better.

I like the Catholic religion although I may not agree completely with everything....
I do not want to have to do confirmation class AGAIN next year just because I didn't show up to a mandatory thing... because then I'd have to pay another 100 bucks for admission to the confirmation class again, and my friends are with me right now... next year I won't have friends in the class. I also sacrificed some extracurricular things to be confirmed. Two shows... a school production and a main stage production. That really sucks, but God and Jesus are the way to go right?

Anyways that is what I'll end with.